Monday, March 29, 2010
some of you might not know me well,but deep down..i am a very shy person
i don't easily open up myself to people
hence sometimes, some people might think that i'm a quiet and inactive person
i don't quite talk to strangers.infact, i almost ran out of topics to say to someone i first knew every time i meet someone new.
why is it so hard? coming to university itself,i've learnt that i'm becoming a total different person
i'm changing into someone who doesn't like socializing.
i want to meet new friends so much but i just don't know the correct way to approach them
the other day when one of my lecturer whom i quite admire for his intellectual and interesting way of lecture, decided to hold up a opinion session.
we were given two sets of articles and we can raise our hands up to speak up,to tell the class what we think about the articles. and of course, bonus marks are given to students who volunteerily give out their opinions.
at that moment, i just had this sudden urge of voicing out. not for the sake of the bonus marks but i just wana share my ideas. i want to convince my lecturer that i do have my own judgement to issues. there weren't many people who volunteered, and i wanted to join the few that were brave enough to voice out.
i was so confident of the ideas generated but then i was stopped by my own shyness.
i was so afraid that people might not agree to what i was about to say.
i was so afraid that people might judge me based on the opinion i gave.
in the end, i decided not to raise up my hand. and let the golden opportunity slip away.
my mood was totally ruined. what a fool i am?!
common,i am someone from KL, not some small town girl who are afraid of voicing out.
i was so ashamed of myself. =(
Sunday, March 14, 2010
yes,i went back on Thursday night out of a last minute plan.
i just had the sudden urge to travel back home.Home sick has taken its toll on me
i had so much fun back home with the smooth Wi-fi where i can actually download loads of movies,songs n videos.
not to mention,i finally got to catch up on American Idol season 9!!
gosh,the auditions are just hilarious. i spotted few talented ones too.
i miss watching this show.i actually cried during one of the episodes.
i was just touched seeing people striving so hard juz to pursue their dreams.
i wish i am as determined as they are.seriously.
anyway,i am dying here for your info.
i have tons of assignments due like real soon.
2 next week and so many other coming up real soon.
not forgetting final's just about a month away! how crazy is that?
oh oh and i am sooo damn addicted to How I met your mother.
SK introduced me and i was kinda doubtful at 1st.
i mean how i met your mother? the name's kinda lame for a show ya noe.
HOWEVER, i was so damn surprised ok.
seriously,its one of the best show ever.it's juz as funny as Big Bang theory.
love it! i've been visiting the library more often these days.thanks to the stupid line back in my hostel. it can just die off at the midst of people rushing assignments.how pathetic is that?!however,i am starting to like being in the library. i just get the sudden feeling of relaxing my mind and indulge in the process of finishing off my assignment.haha!
signing off now.take care peeps!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
My time have been taken up with the workload and all
i snorkelled a while but there wasnt much to see in the sea.lolz
hopefully i can get cheap flight tickets =)
ironically,i like him! yes i do <3