Lately I've been having much thoughts on my mind.
how does one really adapt to the surroundings and environment around them?
Two years into staying outside with friends instead of family,I've learned so much about getting along with people.
It's just a matter of time really.until you figure out a person from head to toe.
from the way she eats to the way she sleep.and also to the extent of the way she bath.haha
sometimes i get kinda uncomfortable living under one roof with someone who isn't your family.
there isn't much privacy left and i feel so vulnerable and fragile.
the minute u let your guards down and leave your comfort zone is the minute u will get yourself hurt anytime.
it's not about the issue of trust or anything.but sometimes I'd rather keep everything to myself than to spill it all out to someone else.
to be frank,i am afraid of being judged by others.of the way i think and speak.
i know it's not appropriate to hold back and be someone I'm not.
but that's just how i communicate with people around me. i'd rather be someone i'm not than to say something offensive. =/
As I've mentioned before,i ought to be someone shy and quiet.i find it hard to think of topics to talk to someone. it's like i would run out of words to say so it's kinda difficult for me to hold a conversation for more than 15mins. sucks big time. which is why most of the time,i choose to travel alone. i would rather take the 3hrs bus alone than to have a friend sitting beside me.because by then i would have to think of something to talk about in order to decrease the awkwardness. I'm weird i know.
oh well,i think i'll probably improve myself by the time i start working.the drama really starts by then.i'll have more things to mumble about and more thoughts running through my mind.
it's a Public Holiday tmr.heading out shopping with the housemates.hopefully i can grab something nice for CNY cause there isnt much time left for shopping!
XX
5 comments:
Grow well, eat well and live well, take care =)
woah the way she eats, sleep and BATH ?! quite scary if anyone be your house mate btw.. :P
ooooo! You are actually afraid of being judged... Say it out lah... then only those ppl around you knows how silly and funny you are marr haha..
I certainly wouldnt know if you dont tell out here... Cuz i always thought taht you are those like "think wat say way and no holding back"...
Shy and quiet? Sure bo.. kind of funny when i read that you cant hold a conversation more than 15mins LOL.. omggggggggggggg, meaning after 15mins you will automatically programmed into a silenced-Shirley kah?
oh yeaaa!
Me havent buy CNY clothes too.. Heading out later too, tengok Quiksilver dulu, sebab i ada 20% discount wahahaha..
yea staying away from home is kinda difficult thing, don't worry its not only you because i am going thru the same thing as you. For now i am having problem with one of my housemate, i used to open my room door and share everything with her but now i kept my door close and we hardly talk anymore. Sometimes the enviness could kill. She's someone who are easily envy of ppl and likes to show off. Plus she's the owner's daughter so we cant say a thing. >.<
hey cheeky!!! u'll be fine..atleast u r close to home... :) ntg's wrong v how u communicate...diff ppl hv diff perspective, as long u feel comfortable v it...
hi! i don't think that it's necessary to be understood by everyone. just keep your friends close and open up at your own pace.
xoxo
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